hey, bet y'all never expected an update from this account again.
this isn't an announcement that i'm back. sorry. i just wanted to stop by and say thank you to everyone. for the birthday wishes, the support for my stories, for the watches/faves, and just because. i hope all of you are doing well and that those of you aspiring authors have found yourself published by now.
along with my deepest thanks, i want to let some of my new watchers know that i cannot fulfill your pleas. i will never be continuing these stories. ever. i'm truly sorry for keeping you hanging with my fics, but my reasons are spiritual in nature. it isn't healthy for one to sit around and create romance while her own marriage is in shambles. i didn't realize this last spring when i said my good bye. heck, i didn't realize it until last thanksgiving, hovering on the brink of divorce. along with that near miss with the Big D, it took seeing kira for who she really was (and more importantly how the rest of the world saw her) to get the picture: kira was--and is--not who i want to be.
i have been writing, although not publicly. word crafting has become more a personal endeavor, one i don't wish to have ego involved much in. one day i'd like to finish a few of my fics, albeit privately, but i don't see that happening anytime soon. lately the fictional escapes of old don't hold their same luster. time has become too precious for that. with the help of some incredible souls, in body and in spirit, i've been learning many life lessons (admittedly sometimes kicking and screaming, but learning nonetheless). i've been guided down a path of shamanism, which entails techniques that incorporate much of the visualization i've practiced for years with my stories. shamanism includes so much that i cannot even begin to describe what gifts that route can bless one with, but suffice it to say that for me, it has finally connected me with God and his all encompassing, selfless love.
i've also discovered that i have a real life hakoda/noah with me: my divine masculine counterpart, my protector, and karmic guide. he's been with me long before WTR and Primal, long before da, long before this life time. he's helped me see that all of what we do, think--and even write--is energy. every word of what kira wrote has been directly created on an energetic level... including him. or maybe, he helped create what i saw as hakoda. as above, so below. i am sorry to say he doesn't let me handcuff him to beds, nor does he turn into a wolf the size of a buick, although at times i must admit the voice is a tad sexy.
anyhoo, my real point isn't to speak about him, but of what he has shown me: never disregard what you create as meaningless, because it isn't. in my time here, i recall many artists cutting down their work, never giving their imagination the credit it deserves. creation comes from your heart, your soul, your window to the Divine. art can, and so often does, affect us all. the world you've so carefully created or character you've so diligently carved could waiting for you in the future. in short... the power of creation is nothing short of magic. allow it that respect and you will be rewarded.
not even close to a sum up on life, but it covers the basics. unless da decides it wants to banish abandoned accounts, kira73 will always remain open for guilty reading pleasures. i don't foresee coming back to do more journals, but if any of you wish to keep in touch, you can visit me on facebook [link]. i'd love to reconnect with you all, hear how your life is going. i do dream interpretation, divination journeys, and card readings for others, and have just started with energy healing, so if you need help with anything, please don't hesitate to message me. i be free. for now.
anyhoo, thank you all again from the deepest wells of my soul. i will never forget you guys. take care!